It all started with the letter "J"

Okay, this is my 1st blog and usually people had nothing much to say at this point.

Well, for me, the fun had just begun.

Is like any night alone in my room, alone.

I just finish almost a two hour phone call with someone called "J".

Is a she by the way.

I haven't had these kinds of phone talks like forever.

I just wanted to hear her voice and see how she's doing today.

"J" was one of the most unique, loud, unpredictable but wonderful person I've ever meet.

I've remember it was in the May of 2007 where I've meet her.

From the 1st glimpse I saw her, I know that this girl is something special.

It was a friday evening I remember, after some class in the lecture hall.

I kept looking at her without her intention, but I really wanted to get to know this girl.

So after the class, and it was the day before the holiday, I ran down to her and ask her for her cellphone number and yes she gave me.

I was so happy and felt so stupid at the same time that I didn't introduce myself properly.

During the holidays, I've message her a couple of times and manage to get her IM address.

Of course I was thrill, we chat so much and she told me so much bout her past and me told her mine as well.

And I've remember bout she saying this guy that she like turning homo then straight then vice versa.

Got me a lil @.@ there. HAHA

As time goes on, our friendship begin to grew (that's what I've think).

Is not long for this girl to start teasing at me like crazy, but I don't mind at all because I know deep down she still a woman who cares but show it in a different way.

As this relationships grew, I realize two things, 1st is that I think I'm falling for her and 2nd, I don't think I have a shot with her and she felt that Im into something lately.

She ask me is it cause I like someone else, and of cause I said NO...

On and on i know I can't hide things from her, so I decided to fall for another girl and I do but without really get to know the girl as well as I known "J".

After few months later, I realize she got a new boy friend.

Of course, I wasn't proud but what to do, the guy is one of my college friends and the choice is with the girl not mine.

During my A-Levels period, I suffer from bad result to bad social skills.

And I realize that this is not what I wanted to do in the 1st place, that is why I choose A-Levels.

So I said to myself, I will change college and a different course in 2008 and hopefully start a better life and try to move on my feelings for "J".

And so I did change college, after my finals exam in 2007, I change to KDU college and Im doing mass communications there.

When people say KDU college they think bout beautiful woman and stuff... (honestly it is a scam and I think is created by the college own PR)

Okay, so 1st day in KDU college and i felt like a new man, as soon as I enter my class, the people there are so different from TAR college.

Just by the looks I can tell, cool tattoo on the leg, labels handbags and the language usage when they speak.

So I think, well, I can fit in quite nice here. And yes I did fit in along really well with the January intake.

But what about the relationship thing?

I still can't get my mind of her even though we haven't speak for so long and that's the purpose I though I can forget bout the past and move on...but I just can't.

Not very long into the 1st semester, I can't help it but when I saw her online I just open the chatting windows even I didn't say anything to her.

Just staring at the blank chat space, thinking am I going to write to her and suddenly one day I heard about this prom night in TAR college.

And yeah, I did went and bought a 600 bucks coat just to impress someone else.

And yeah,I went there without a partner.

I saw her that night, she was wearing this dress and with a scarf or something like that.

We didn't speak much, tried to take pictures with her but she's avoiding me and I knew it.

When all the people start dancing, I was sitting there all alone on the chair wondering is it a wrong move that I had come to this prom just to sit there and be alone?

Well, for a guy I confess my eyes are wet that night (not crying, just wet) with all this stuff going on.

I remember I didn't sleep for two days because of assignment and at the end of the prom my nose start bleeding.

Drank some water, and there they was, asking me to go Sing K with them in Sunway Pyramid.

And yet she personally ask me again in quite a angry tone as usual XD, so I did went for the Karaoke and the supper.

I don't know what the hell I sang that night, all are emotional songs like from Justin Timberlake and John Legend.

After that, due to they had not enough transport I need to fetch some of the friends to Puchong to overnight.

Supposedly I should stay there for the night, but I didn't.

So after fetching them back, I'm headed home and caught in a minor car accident with a taxi driver.

Luckily nothing serious happen and I reach home round 5-6am.

Anyway, back in KDU college, I have no luck finding myself a special someone yet.

After the prom, me n "J" start chatting back more often but not much as well.

Until today, we still remain as friends but the feeling for her, me myself was still quite unsure has it ended...

But one things for sure is that I never forget how special she was as a classmate, buddy, friend, Ji Mui, or whatever it is to me and always will be.

~~Sly~~